#emotionalsafety

Jeff bezos had 300k loan and just himself, a computer and stack of old books, yet grew it into Amazon. DST had hundreds of millions of dollars, thousands of technical staff and huge data centers yet it missed the ball and failed. Dst couldn't assign 1 programmer to do what bezos did? If so DST would have been amazon. But dst is gone and layoffs took an emotional toll on its staff

I didn't know you could feel both petrified and relieved at the same time. That's me today. I'm so scared of what'll happen tomorrow, but at the same time, I'm feeling relieved that it'll finally be over, and not a day too soon. A thoroughly strange feeling, I have to admit.

I feel like crying. I really wanted this option. Fu-k my life.

I have watched leaders with authority lose the confidence of their teams because they lack emotional intelligence. Connect first and then lead.

It's okay to be wrecked by a layoff. When I got cut from my previous company, people told me to just move on. Sc--w that. It hurts. That job was my routine, my purpose. You're allowed to be upset. Anyone who says otherwise hasn't been through it.

I am safe, and I dont feel great. I feel destroyed. So many people around me are gone, and my heart is broken. I can't even understand how we move forward without some of the groups we have lost today

Is there anything I can do to make sure I am safe?

I absolutely need to be safe.

What can I do?

I am mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted with all the uncertainty that’s going on and dealing with a manager who’s an absolute bully. It feels like I’m clinically depressed and trapped.