I do not remember it feeling like this before. There is a level of fakeness that feels excessive. Conversations that feel transactional. People who can be vindictive, rude, and in some cases honestly cruel. Not openly aggressive, just quietly cutting. It's really kept pulling on me.
I do not have these issues outside of work. That is what makes it unsettling. It makes me wonder if something about the environment changes people, or if I was just naive for a long time.
I had a rough year, so I have tried to account for that. I have tried to tell myself maybe I am just more sensitive right now. But it feels bigger than that. Over the last few years I have slowly lost faith in the culture here, and what scares me most is feeling that cynicism creep into how I see people in general.
I do not want to believe this is just how people are.
Has anyone else experienced this, or is it just me?