I built a great team. I put in long hours. I contributed significantly to the bottom line. I networked within the company and outside the company to make a name for myself. My contributions were recognized and rewarded. I love what I do. It defines me.
My dedication to my job was at a cost to my family. This cost me dearly personally and financially. Those years are gone. Those relationships can't be restored. That money is gone too. I alienated a lot of people along the way.
I look at all my memos and spreadsheets and slide decks with fondness like I am looking at baby pictures of my children.
I will not get a lateral position at either Oxy or CVX, those are few and far between. In a few months, I will be unemployed, not as rich as you might think, my network dispersed. And my life's work will be thrown into a dumpster. Without Anadarko, I have no legacy. I work, therefore I am. Soon it will be as if I never was.