Well V Teamers, I think it finally clicked for me today. I have been talking sm--k about vzw on this board, other boards and to friends/family for about a year. Yet I was still going above and beyond while working and actively sending feedback on system improvements. Today something happened as I was reading up on some OSTs my in down time to remember some policies and procedures that are not too common. I found something that has caused issues for customers, and I was able to think of a solution. I started to draft a submission for the employee feedback tool and about halfway into my second sentence, I closed the document, didn't save it and closed the OST. I then went to our engagement slack and participated in one of the many pointless activities that they have for us. This is unusual for me as I typically thought these activities took time away from work with no real reward besides imaginary points you can spend on useless merch.
It was just so bizarre that it stuck with me hours after my shift ended. I think my subconscious finally caught up to all the sm--k talk I have done when I was heated. It doesn't feel like weight has been lifted off my shoulders but for some reason I just feel like I let go of something heavy. Like something in my head just clicked and said why bother it's not my job to find these issues in policy/procedure and fix them.
Has anyone experienced something like this while working for vzw or anywhere else? I just feel like I no longer have the drive to improve my work and my work experience at least with vzw. I'm not sad or happy about it. It just has me thinking, and I can't seem to process it. Any insight would be appreciated.