Please take a deep breath. Now another. This is not your fault. You are an amazing person and we were lucky to work with you.
The feelings you are likely experiencing are normal and you do not deserve this situation. If you can, take a few days and disconnect as much as possible. Go for walks, take a road trip, or get out into nature. You will land on your feet. You are an amazing person.
Even if you don't need it, you should be able to use benefits for the next 60 days. There is no shame in talking to someone in our EAP trained to guide people through what you are going through.