After many, many years of drawing the ‘short stick’ in ranking, I’ve seemed to hit a stride where I am appreciated. (Ironically, I deliver the same caliber work as I always have.)
Now I have some variation of survivor’s guilt. I am so disgusted by how my peers are treated, that I feel guilty for accidentally ending up okay. It’s not fair. My ranking early in my career was not fair. My current ranking is not fair. I suspect your ranking is not fair, either.
Whether you stay or whether you go, we all need to remember that this is all wrong, right now. I would like to think I am important to the company. I get positive feedback and my ego says “Yes, I worked hard for this, and they finally see my value.” But I have this awful feeling that I am receiving a bribe to smile and plod on. Clearly, I am still processing this. (This is probably why I am reading a layoff site.). But for those who are unhappy, I feel you. Your reasons are valid.