OP: I do not in any way want to minimize what you are going through right now, been there many times and got the t-shirt. I Left after 29 years with the farm. I can wholeheartedly confirm that there is life after SF. It was strange at first because I missed my friends and the work itself, but that fades. My best advice, whichever way it goes for you is this: If you somehow make it through this round, there will be another, and another. If you aren't already, start planning for that day. Get (or keep getting) your financial house in order. Pay down your debts, save an emergency fund (ultimately 3 - 6 months salary), sacrifice to meet this goal because money will be your friend when you need it. Keep your head high and try to remember the good parts after your time has come...